Drunk in Public

you'd be amazed how much work it takes to destroy a human life
i should know, i have been trying for over twenty years now
what more can i say?

"your up setting us" they say
"get ahold of your self"

i must be honest, sometimes (usually the next day) i feel kind of embarrased.
but that doesnt mean i wont do it again.


looking over my shoulder.
im sweating for no reason.
im less of my self everyday.
last year i wasnt half as bad.
i have plastered my crimes to my face.
they are there for eveyone to see.
and im so sorry.
i know you can see it in me.
normal people dont act this way.
i have never felt this desperate in my life;
but i know i have said that before.