American Heaven

I promised my self
today was going to be different,
and yet again,
i failed my self.
How many runied days
will it take before i learn my lesson.
Its still light out,
and by night,
ill be
out
of
my
mind.
Ill hide in the back,
till the sun
goes down,
then it will be my turn
to rattle off
all my
failures.
only, ill be the only one listening.
You'll know me
when you see me.
Im the one laughing it up,
holding back the tears,
while prying the poisoned dart
from my ribs.
ill be dancing
with
hate in my eyes,
spite in my guts,
and a suicide note
in my pocket.
Just ignore me if you see me,
ill probably be gone in a little while
anyways.
Thank you for your time.
1/9/07