Years In the Dark

Its been a long and hard battle.
trying to be something I am not,
nor will I ever be.
I tell my self to remember all the things
than can set me free,
and Just like that, its all gone.
after so many years in the dark,
it seems impossible to believe in escape.
I am being pulled agains my will.
and for so long,
that I have accepted it as the only way.
There is always room in here for a new hole
a new pit for you to fester and ruin.
I am not watching where i am walking.
i drag my feet
from one heartache
to the next.
4/27/07