The Man I Could Be

Not much falls into place these days.
Its always much harder than it has to be.
at least thats how it seems.
when you got what it takes
to make life worth living,
and you neglect to use those tools,
for whatever reason,
there's something terribly wrong.
Its been under my nose for years now,
I fell it in my guts.
Its worth any sacrifice
to become the man I know I could be.
Invitations in one form or another have
come and gone without second thought.
I can kill my self for how many more years?
Its time i gave my self a chance.
Its always easier said,
but at this point,
I am running out of options.
i hate to say it,
but its do or die.
5/10/07