Still Something Worth Mentioning

I got in my car and make up my mind to drive through the woods, rather than eating on my lunch break.
I drove about a mile before I ended up at a baseball field
that I recognized from when I had spent my last day with the love of my life
before she left for Europe for the first time.
I felt compelled to stop off
and do some thinking,
in hopes that the beautiful weather could, in some way,
brighten my spirits.
I completely lost track of time as I watched bumble bees
cut through the wind, like dogfighters in one of those black and white movies.
I watched a young mother push her toddler in a swing as his laugh;
although barely audible over the sound of the nearby traffic,
made me smile to my self.
I gathered my belongs and drove back to work.
I tried as hard as I could to focus on being productive.

I have been trying so hard to let my self rest.
I pray that one day the headaches will subside,
and that I will finally get a chance to prove my worth,
and be a man.

Early May, 2008, 1:15pm