Anywhere But Earth

Now that I think about it,
she never offered any words to calm my nerves
after I confronted her about what I knew
she was going to do to me.

I hugged her outside of her house.
The house that her parents paid for.
I had four million words I needed to say
but all of them so useless.

She kissed my ear
and asked me if I'd call her in a couple hours.

I said I would.
I knew I wouldn't.

I never lied to her,
but what I didn't tell her
will send me to hell,
all alone.

For as long as I live
I'll never forget the feeling in my
gut when I knew that this
would be the last time I'd touch her skin.

I'd do anything to be anywhere
not feeling that feeling.