As Per Usual

Coldest day of the year so far,
and i can feel it.
numbness hurts.
Went over the same old thoughts
again
in the shower.
Came to work,
and now I am
regeting yesterday.
like usual.
I thought long and hard last nigth
about not thinking
long and hard.
I weighed my options:
School,
alcohol,
work,
suicide,
the usual;
Nothing.
2/7/07